...all right

I woke up early in the morning, just to feel the sense of peace and relief sink deep into me, to my every cell. I am aware that I am alive and everything wrong, finally, indeed, is gonna be alright. Hi there new day, hi there holiday... hi there another challenge and hi there Hanoi, I am coming home soon.

Yesterday
I held my breath... unable to breath when I dialed my close friends' numbers yesterday, I was scared, of losing them, losing any of them. My batch mates, Innovians, Indonesians, Malaysian, Philippina, Thai and Vietnamese, they have been amazing. They have accepted me and my weird sadistic nature, the irritating sarcasm coming out from pure unintention... Not all, not all people in this world are able to reply my harsh comment with sparling laugters like Fanie, like Cindy... Not every one can hit me or even slap so hard to bring me back to my mean self in time of need so that I can repress my feeling and show my strong self.... at the same time, hold me close to let me cry when all those strangers whose only intent is to bring me down leave... Not everyone, but Christin can, and I admire her for all that, all the strength and pride that she puts upfront, on the other hand, the sincere friendship the care and love she hides behind al the scoldings... I thank you, all of you for all that u have done.. all the night you were awake to help me with Student Council campaign, all te birthday parties that we threw... we laughed together... and that special night, when 4 of us, walking in the rain... so much laughter so much freedom
For the first time, in a long while, I found my youthful not bitter not precaucious self... And all of that, was because of you guys.

Today
I breath in and hi there, everything is gonna be all right. I am waiting for Christin and Michelle to confirm the day they can go to Vietnam to visit me.. and Ruam, my dearest Ruam, though she is longer here, suffering the weird rainny weather of Singapore, I believe she is having a great time in Thailand... See you soon, dear, in the land I was born... in the center of my heart.

too many plan and the grad nite preparation is indeed driving me insane, yet when I think I have so many people around me, pushing me through. like liyanto, like JQ, like the 4th council.. I smile... Gonna meet Ferina in a few hours and everthing is all right

for us

Out of nothing

I have always wanted to bring you alive, through... a picture, an art piece. I tried to draw u.

Out of my dreams, my imagination, my heart and soul, my memories... my insanity and madness...

Out of all that are unreal and impossible, out of all those struggle and tears and fear and anger and sadness...

Out of love and despair

I tried to create a you that belong to me, and only me...
A you that only I know, out of memories that only I possessed

and I failed, so many times... cuz whatever I do, I know, I can't bring you alive, out of the paper, cannot warm those ice cold hands, cannot gaze upon those beautiful eyes, which have already shut eternally...

One night, I woke up and felt the unbearable urge to do something for us, not for u or me, but for us...


and maybe... sometime... there is only one thing left to say

I love you
love you till the end

come september

Her bones will ache

Her mouth will shake

And as the passion dies

Her magic heart will break

She'll fly to France

Cause there's no chance

No hope for Cinderella

Come September

Everything wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September

Her violet sky

Will need to cry

Cause if it doesn rain

Then everything will die

She needs to heal

She needs to feel

Something more than tender

Come September

Everything wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September

The souls that burn

Will twist and turn and find-

you in the dark

No matter where you run

She's made her mark

But lost her spark

And what she's pushing for

She can't remember

Everything wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September

Her eyes surrender, her cry a-

crying shame

Coming undone is she ever gonna-

feel the same

She will run

She's gonna drink the sun

Shining just for you

Instead of everyone

And so it goes

She'll stand alone

And try not to remember

Come September

Everything Wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September

sometime...

missing simply means you have already forgotten half

while

forgetting indeed hides a sky of longing for the past

sometime...

crying simply shows half of the pain on the surface

while

smiling indeed hides an ocean of frozen heartache

sometime...

loving someone only means you are half close to his heart

while

eternal separation... fills us with eternal loving

I miss you

but everything wrong

will be alright

come september

Tegar

come September... come come autumn... come come tears falling down like yellow leaves... come come exams... and a new day begins

with RUam

someone I can trust

Someone I can run to

with whom I can truly be... myself

(even when I am lost, I know she will find me, she will ALWAYS find me)


we eat from the same plates... share food... get fat together... laugh at each other's joke
cry over each others' tear

RUam & RAchel
2005-2006-2007-2008 and many years to come...

Thank you for who you are... simple as that, thank you, for whom I have become, because of your love for me, your kindness and foolishness. I dont believe in forever, nor do I think there is anything eternal when it's so hard to trust..., but for once, you give me belief in destiny and true friendship... thank you ^^

"Lucky"

I came across this song a few days back and immediately I smile, silly smile, smile of someone who thinks she knows better but she doesn't. I guess it's the smile of happiness, thinking of two particular love birds whose smile I could hardly stand (too cute to look away, yet I am too proper to keep my stare and admire the pure sincerity and happiness) So I sms the guy, 'cuz his gf has a good habit of losing her dear phone, up to a point, I have 3 numbers with the same name, none of which works... sigh. 

Hey there, yes, 2 of you, this song is tailor-made for you. I like it much and much more cuz it constantly reminds me of you. I wonder if you two enjoy this type of old-generation music, no Avril, no Simple Plan, haha, no screaming yearning... but yet, bear with me, this chilling and ... just happy, simple yet so happy song is a beautiful ending I hope to see you in.

LUCKY

by Jason Mraz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nR1kx0v53HM

Duong:

Do you hear me, 

I'm talking to you 

Across the water across the deep blue ocean 

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying 

Rep:

Boy I hear you in my dreams 

I feel your whisper across the sea 

I keep you with me in my heart 

You make it easier when life gets hard 

Both:

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend 

Lucky to have been where I have been 

Lucky to be coming home again 

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh 

Either (suit both)

They don't know how long it takes 

Waiting for a love like this 

Every time we say goodbye 

I wish we had one more kiss 

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will 

Duong:

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend 

Lucky to have been where I have been 

Lucky to be coming home again 

Lucky we're in love every way 

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed 

Lucky to be coming home someday 

Duong:

And so I'm sailing through the sea 

To an island where we'll meet 

You'll hear the music fill the air 

I'll put a flower in your hair 

Rep:

though the breezes through trees 

Move so pretty you're all I see 

As the world keeps spinning round 

You hold me right here right now 

Both:

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend 

Lucky to have been where I have been 

Lucky to be coming home again 

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh 

Monkey in the strange, absurd land:

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh 

Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Dear you,

I could not help but smiling and wish the second verse of this song will come true to you one day, of course I do think of the absurd coconut and the 2 of you running around it like any typical Bollywood movie... I mean, a day when you can be together. I understand it's extremely hard, to love someone so much, yet unable to cross the streets, walk the distance to touch your lover's hand, or simply hear her laugh, see the pinky blush color on her cheek. 

So I write this to you, inspired by this particular song that truly touch my heart (words of wisdom? no, take it as a few lines from someone who cares, who believes, who loves and believe she knows what love truly is about). Just so every time you feel beaten by prejudice, gossip and rumor, every single time you feel like letting go. Remember this, from me. I do save a space in my heart for you and you. Not shown, yet I care. I do

You are lucky, very lucky to have found each other and fall in love, to have touch the other person's heart and soul. How odd can that be? 2 years knowing one another, without recognizing he/she is the ONE for me. So lucky to be in love with someone who understands and cares, to be in love with your best friend. How odd can that be? 2 single souls in the world wide... like two tiny fish in the vast ocean. So congratulation, like finding your treasure, hold it close.

They really are clueless, absolutely no idea, how happy, bubbly it is to be in love and of course, they don't know how hard you guys are going through. And they don't deserve to know it, take it easy, dear, there are so much more objections, obstacles along the way. I don't wonder if you can make it, I believe if you really want it, and as long as you still have the other person's image engrave in your heart... one fine morning, you will wake up knowing this is the happy ending and a beautiful beginning

So, don't let go, ok? Not without a fight, and a good fine fight. 'Cuz when you look back, the winning battle is always sweeter. I wish you all the best

For Duong: lol in plain English, you are my true younger brother and thx for everything you have felt for me, as a non-related sister. I could not ask for more. Keep your passion flaming, keep your desire restless, and your dreams high. I am, a click away, a phone call. You will never, have to get depressed alone (my offer, your choice to press the button and we can talk ^^, craps or business)

For Rep: He is coming home. Take a deep breath, and think of him, when you open your eyes, his hands are within your reach. Alert me which street you two are crossing, 'cuz it's too embarrassing for me not to stare haha, at two smiling idiots who I love. Keep him wanting to go home, ok? You have a choice, to be unhappy and think "Damn another day WITHOUT Duong" OR smile and think "YAY, one day less to the moment we meet again" Keep yourself safe and sound. For a better day.

Long winded me should ends here before I sound like a good old whiny grand ma. May my blessing come to you, and btw, no need to shout each other name like the song... M1 cannot send your love, I am aware, lol. Why don't you deliver it, personally?

Chi Linh

p/S: this is NOT in my Vietnamese blog for one good reason, I dont want my uncles and aunts who constantly read my blog, to misunderstand and misinterpret anything... GOsh, how much trouble blog gave me, yet, the idea of sharing, passing the passion and love keeps me on. Take care. 

Ngay lang thang

Hey Fer, how I miss u, from my heart and soul. I do think about u dearly and wish u all the best

Hey roommate, how are u doing? Over there, in McNair. The laundry rox, I know. Still remember our 6 bed-room, whining u and me, being mean to u, as usual as always, Putu, deary Putu who cooks weird food every now and then, and Lintang... gosh that girl and her cute curly hair, smiling, making noodles, tricking me to play the SIM which she failed miserably, quiet Trace and haha, amazingly neat Dhea. Miss us? Miss u and me? : 'Cuz I do, a lot. I nearly cried when I hear u, over the phone : "I miss you, noone is mean to me here" Oh gosh, my big pink loser, my Fer, I do pray ever day that no one in this world (apart from me, lol) is mean to u, and u are treated as u deserved, are loved because of your outstanding personality (which is forever blur and kind)

Ngay Lang Thang is what I always call days walking around with you, taking pictures of Singapore. Small city, small country but how beautiful it can be, if we do look, closely with an open heart. I love Singapore more because of you, of knowing it more and seeing it through in the eyes of an artist.

.

may happiness surround u
may u always smile like this
may more wandering days come along
may we stay true and keep our friendship, forever

take care
and all the best for ur ASEAN DANCE performance

This is LOVE

this is love...

this is accepting our lover's short coming

and love him still

this is reaching for your love

not being afraid you are slowing her down

this is love

trusting and moving together,

 same pace

 same road

 same

what is that?

little affection? blow up till you get dizzy

That wasn't love

what is that?

demanding and questioning? till you exhaust yourselves him

That wasn't love

just thinking

are we in love? were we in love?

when you let go, of ourselves?

give me a chance to love everything about you, your pain, your happiness, your childishness, your smile, your tears... give me a chance to show you I can and I am delighted to take care of you, even if, the clock is ticking and you were moving away from me, to the darkness of life, the twilight of life, merging to another world...