{theLaundrylist} 01

I finished reading"One Day" a moment ago. Chest tightened, still breathless. Em and Dex, Dex and Em - and we all move on, remembering somewhere in the past, someone did live, did feel, did love...

BigBang is back with BLUE - how apt, for such a gloomy Tuesday. I don't wonder when my DBSK would be back any more. It's not time to dwell over what Cassie can't have but to celebrate with VIP about this amazing comeback. :) On a note, my 2 dear girls' birthday is approaching very very soon

Aiden C. and Ariana did super well on their "reading for Ms. Linh" time today - seeing their tremendous improvement, I can't help but feel proud, so so so proud

Internet connection is still horribly slow... I smell like disappointment and boredom for the first time though it was a really nice, much needed nap. The road is still dreadfully long - life isn't always beautiful like I always feign optimism. There are days like this, days like today, days that you feel down without knowing why. 

Perhaps it's the resentment of Spring... March is approaching. Where are you? Why am I still here, without you?

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I decide to write more often today. I lost it - I admit my defeat. What I once had, now I lost it all - my ability to write. Looking back at my past entries, I wonder where that Linh went. Up in to wood, high above the clouds? I do not know. I once draw inspiration from pain. Thus when the pain subsides, I am left with a state of indifference... almost like stale coffee, lingering in the air.

So I decide to write {theLaundrylist} - small bits and pieces of what happens every single moment my heart skips a beat or two. It is something I despise - unpolished, "the dirty laundry" rundown of what goes on. However, I don't get any younger sitting here wondering where it all went. I don't get any more talented or better at my writing. So I will just write - like sail, sail till I meet my new shore. It's one of those days which you are tired of yourself and you made a decision.

Get up and get going...

A shower first to wash away this horrendous smell of disappointment and the taste of boredom at the tip of my tongue, then homework - with hot chocolate, perhaps. Who knows?

The day is young.

the pre-Valentine's Day note

For the Single, the Bitter, the Lonely - the Dateless

On this day I want you to remind you of grace. Be graceful, be kind. The fact that you are not happy or satisfied, doesn't mean no one else in the world can be - those people in love. Please stop trashing the Valentine's day. Please stop complaining about what you do not have. Please stop saying that you wish this day doesn't exist. Please understand that THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU AND YOU ALONE" And if you are in a relationship now, would you wish the same? So say a little prayer, give your friend a bright smile and wish them a wonderful date. See, it isn't hard.

On this day I want you to know that Valentine does not mean the end of the world. And that even though it may make you go all "Poor me, I have no one" Though perhaps it's only natural, that's not true. You are loved. In one way or another you are loved. And that even though you are not loved the way you want to be loved - appreciate people who adore you with all their hearts, like your parents, like your friends.

On this day I would like to remind you that happiness is like a blanket, it's not enough for everyone - but it doesn't mean you can't have a bit of warmth in this cold cold world. Make yourself a cup of hot chocolate, play a song for yourself. It's another Tuesday that you can help take over your colleague's shift so she can go on a date. Why not? That happiness on her face, will it not make your day? Remember this, if the Buddhists who don't celebrate Christmas can enjoy the beautiful decoration of Christmas, why can't you the single, enjoy the chocolate, the pinkish - reddish roses of Valentine's.

On this day I want you to not be mistaken, there is a difference between "alone" and "lonely" - just like there is a difference between "love" and "lust." 

On this day, I want you to remember your smile, your dignity - remember who you are. Hang in there and don't compromise for anything/anyone less that you deserve. There are too many mediocre things in the world already and please, love should not be one of them.

My love, Happy Valentine's day