Tuesday, April 28, 2009

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In this world you tried,

Not leaving me alone behind.

There's no other way,

I pray to the gods let him stay.

The memories ease the pain inside,

And now I know why.



All of my memories keep you near.

In silent moments,

Imagine you'd be here.

All of my memories keep you near,

In silent whispers, silent tears



Made me promise I'd try,

To find my way back in this life.

Hope there is a way,

To give me a sign you're okay.

Reminds me again it's worth it all,

So I can go home.


Together in all these memories,

I see your smile.

All of the memories I hold dear.

Darling do you know I'll love you,

Till the end of time?



ask, and you will receive...

I want to listen to a fairy tale, before I sleep... Since he passed away, noone ever read me a story before my bedtime... I can't ask for it either, you know, I am almost 20, cynical and bitter. I never would imagine all these fairy tales were true. Even when I wake up this morning, I still feel as if everything were just a dream...

Nevertheless, thank you so much... Nevertheless, I am eternally grateful for this sad ending fairy tale that came true because of you. Whenever I break down, it's that simple whisper: "I Love you" that you said that cheers me up. Whenever I feel like plunging myself down from that height, it's that childish memory that we shared that saves me from grace. Whenever I am pleased with myself, it's that image of your legacy that pushes me to achieve greater height.

And for all these oceans of tears that I cried, for all the frustration and anger, tantrum that the childish me throw… I am glad to know I can love and am loved that much. Who am I? What do I want? How much do I worth? Because of your departure, I was forced to face reality, I was forced to face the truth at its most brutal form. Maturity is not by chance, it is by choice…

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I asked for a miracle, asked for a sign... knwoing too well, these conection between heaven and earth only exists in fiction... Without faith, without belief, I asked you for a sign, to let me know, you are ok...

And when my mother called me, midnight, out of the blue, immediately after our 1 hour conversation just to let me know she found my braclet that engraved your name... summer snow, four leave clover... I broke into tears...



fairy tales are real, right?

for those who believe...

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you said: move on... where do I go?



I don't know much fairy tales, those I know, I don't believe. Those I believe, the endings fill with despair... So may I, sing a lullaby for you... for this eternal sleep and eternal happiness, eternal closure of all suffering...

ngủ ngoan anh nhé... tình yêu của em

I miss u, so much.