Q: Toki wo tomete. If you had the power, would you stop the time?
:) you really don't know how long it took me to answer this question, how long it took me to think again and again to give you one final answer which I will not look back and regret.
I am a really greedy person, I wish I could travel the time... I wish I could relive 5th of March 2007, I wish I could toki wo tomete 29th April 2007... I wish I hadn't lost whom I once treasured more than my life. Greedy am I not, for wanting so much, longing to hold on too much in my hands?
But the thing is... unfortunate events, love,loss, "all good things come to an end" happen for a reason. If I keep trying to hold on to my past, pausing the time... how can I grab the future? How can I then, meet my "final" one? How can I see my children, experience life? I know there will be more loss, more pain, more obstacles - but there will be also love, happiness and there will be a new me. So, here I let go of this super power you grant me... in the trade of my future, of the unseen...
My past is gorgeous, my past is worthwhile... but I also have strong faith in my future.
so, my answer is NO, not a torn NO but a definite NO.
Apr 25, 2010 01:51:59 PM EDT
Q: Have you ever had an idea you were too ashamed to write afterwards?
@.@ no
You may think I am ... thick-skin shameless. but honestly, there has not been anything that I feel ashamed that much. But there are times, I hold myself back, not to write what I truly feel/ think. When I am mad, I can be cruel and harsh - and my mom sure teaches me better than that. I would stop myself, take a step back when I would love to let things slide.
If you are thinking of something along the line of intimate scenes lol, I mean. I am working on my writing skill anyway, so I should not avoid this question. I will have to write "smut" scene soon, I believe, if I go deeper in the fiction world. When the time comes, I will do my best and craft my imagination as artful as I can. There isn't a thin line between art and cheapskate pornography, in my belief but rather a very define gap. I won't add those scenes in to attract readers -.-" I am more confident in my attraction than resorting to that method. If I add in, I must have a good intention, and I will work hard to bring the purpose of such scene across.
Are u satisfied with my answer?
Apr 24, 2010 08:59:50 AM EDT
Q: What do you like better? Reading or writing?
It's like you are asking me: what do you like better? Receiving or giving?
Everyone likes to receive. Many would read a blog entry without commenting (writing a feedback, writing a comment, writing a few words of encouragement/ helpful critics - it's all writing) I love reading very much since young - when my eye sight was better. As I could not travel, I see the world through the eyes of the author, I see people, I meet the characters: fall in love, build up hatred... (my 1st and only love at first sight was with Ivanhoe of "Ivanhoe" by Sir Walter Scott when I was like... 12 or younger)
Sometime, I feel sorry for myself - I can't really seem to separate facts from fictions that well, despite my Lit teacher's lesson. Ms.Lin encourages me to be more realistic - not drowning myself in the image of Mr.Darcy <3 yet still... reading is like travelling to me, an escape - a wonderful one.
However, many times in my life, I would read and disagree with the author - like how I would love to change the ending, like how I would love to add a few lines here and there - how I wish I could have the power to salvage a character's downfall... Many times - also, I read really screw-up novels, which I really canNOT digest, eps. meaningless teen novels "omg like... I was the queenka and he's the kingka... and omg, we like... so so in love and omg there's the prom and I am telling you... I was the most beautiful girl with the.. omg transformation, and he sooo dumps his ex for me... I am now like..." - yeah, that kind -.-"
That was when I question myself: If I were the author, would I make it any better? That was when I want to "give" instead of "take". I do like writing a lot and many times, too much. Writing is a way of expressing your concern, your turbulence your crisis... yourSELF.You can't write poems with-OUT putting yourself a little bit in it... cutting your heart, opening the raw wound - your poems are written in the blood of your heart. You
could not write something extremely well, if you don't really know it, feel it... Mark my words, you can't really plagiarize.
Having said that, I do like both, nothing better nothing less. Without one, there can't be the other.
Apr 24, 2010 08:49:15 AM EDT
Q: Who drinks coffee with nothing in it?
not me, I'd love to have condensed milk or just milk to coat that bitterness away.
Apr 24, 2010 08:25:01 AM EDT
Q: Does Fatty kick other cats too?
lol - like his sister who has never bitch slapped/ punched/ pulled hair another chick before - Fatty has never behaved in such manner. Once his fish was eaten by the neighbor cat, he chased the intruder off his territory and scare the craps out of that poor kitty with his SCOLDING. He stood in our house and directed his rage to the other building...
I guess it's in my family culture though. lol... Fatty does kick people, indeed: like me -.-" like my cousins once in a while when we "cross the line" and disturb his sleep. Fatty is one true diva :)
... yet I think Fatty and Chuckiee will get a long very very well
Apr 24, 2010 08:24:57 AM EDT
Q: Questions or Answers?
re-Q: do you like receiving questions yourself more or reading answers of others more in this society thing?
A: I like the questions more. I like being questioned also.You know, when they ask you something, it simply means they are thinking of you and wondering about a certain issue. Some questions reveal even the way people think of you. So...it's like a platform for me to see how I have been, what scandal/ rumor I have create - again.
I don't really read others' answers - if I can't care enough about the person. I do read when it's my question though - of course, it's only natural. Just love those very honest and straight forward answers. Dislike very much those 1 - 2 words reply. :)
Apr 24, 2010 08:24:54 AM EDT
Q: whats meowen means to u?
thx Nezz for the question
To be frank - which I guess I will offend many people. I don't know a fair share of the ppl in our CR. So many mean … nothing much to me. @.@ I know! I am really bad, but I want to be very honest here.
There are too many ways meowen express their love for DBSK in CR
Some are happy go lucky kids, emotionally not too stable.
Some are really cool headed mature supporters of DBSK
Some are horny fan girl - with every definition of it
Some are like mafia @.@ who really know A LOT of things that usual fan don't
Some major in DBSK-ism, DBSK-logy.
There are a few names I want to honor.
First and foremost Myra - our big sister. She was the one that collected all of us to CR, like collecting tray cat. She has everyone's phone numbers, remembers our birthday, knows exactly which DBSK moment is in which clips and with her amazing speed, she will get that for you, total proof. She is the meowen that set standard for me. Some one I really admire. What does Myra - THE meowen mean to me? She was the reason I became a member. Like Yunho, seriously, without Yunho, there is no DBSK - said Jae, without Myra, there is NO CR.
Then Iva, she is not the reason I come, but because of her and Nemo, I stay. To be honest, I have been hurt by one meowen, whose name must have been here in my honor list but no longer. Because of that incident, I really did not feel like coming back at all. But Iva made me stay. Iva is the one who always cares too much despite the fact that she is very very much younger than me, and very very much more of a public nuisance than me. She encourages me when I don't feel like writing anymore fiction. Noisily or Quietly, she supports me and pushes me on. There would not be ACOS, not Wrong Number, Not even http://24501faith.blogspot.com/ without her. She is more than a Cassie to me, more than a Meowen, she is almost like my younger sister - the one I desire but never have
Then there is Nemo - she reminds me of myself when I was her age - guess I was not that mature. I admire her for her temper, her determination. She is young yet she does not display ridiculous fangirl behavior - eps. we are on the same page about YH. We don't talk much, but she means much to me. Knowing she reads my blog, my fanfic link, I want to write more and share more with her. I believe, being the very minority, being uniquely different from all those rich kids in her school, Nemo deserves a long round of applause. She is the friend I would love to have, back then in secondary school.
Tiff and Huong and Tin Tin - I should really mention them. They are the older sisters, but not the… eldest, mother-ish like Myra. They are rationale and they talk sense - if you talk sense to them. They can be happy can talk craps can fan-girl with you, but they mean business when it comes to DBSK love. To me they mean guidances.
And of course there are Kat, Nezz, Serbie though very different from Sel and Harang, they are my de-depression pills. My lol and omgggggggg moments. Seeing their pink chat makes me wanna smile and live those carefree moments I surpass. I don't quite agree with 3quarters the things they do, how they perceive DBSK - but without them CR is one boring place filled with tooo serious people like me. They mean pure happiness, young puppy love, silly cutie to me I am sure I miss out many people. I do rmb them, Jac - my "innocent clan" member… I do miss talking to many people of the past who could no longer find time to be here. Those name I mentioned are people whom stand out most vividly in my memory.
Not all meowen are the same. We come to love DBSK for diff reasons. We want different future for
DBSK, and of course, if there is 1 common thing we want them together as 5 again. And I guess, this one common thing makes meowen the comfort zone for me. My Cass home. where outside, ppl just can't wait to tear our faith out, to push us down and take away DBSK legendary spot.
I am blessed to have met you all
Apr 22, 2010 09:30:26 PM EDT
Q: why are your answer always damn long, like mini essays?
Well, people who do not post me questions but read my answers will wonder this: is she nuts to always write such lengthy answer?
I simply want to make a point here, that despite the fact that I don't know who send me these questions, I treasure your concern a lot. I mean it, as long as you bother to clarify your doubts before jumping in groundless assumptions, I will answer all your questions to the best of my ability. I take MYSELF serious, I take YOU and YOUR concern serious. I have been mistaken too much in these mere 21 years of my life: once accused to be a lesbian, another to date 3 different guys -.-" here and there and every where. I don't usually go and explain myself to those people who craft their own fairy tales about me - I am no pleaser to those who mean nothing to me. But recently I learn that because of this attitude, I scare people away from me, eps. people who don't even hate me, who want to know me more but hesitate to come forward.
Thus I create this society.me after Ruam, as a foundation for people to get to know me more. I don't bite - jk I do, but food only. So come and ask. I am pretty sure, you won't be disappointed at my answer.
Apr 22, 2010 08:24:46 PM EDT
Q: Who are your best friends?
- I wonder if you are looking for names - or a more general answer.
I always make my life difficult, aren't I? Since the tense is present, I assume you are looking at the particular phrase of my life.Since the question is a simple "who" I assume you want names - specifically names of my best friends.
So here we go, my one and only mother, my Crabby Ruam and my Big Pink Loser Ferina. Since I declare their names here, it's only fair that I talk a little bit about them.
1. mom: I read this lyric, and I felt absolutely true: "Mom is the first and only woman in this world, who will never betray me, even when I continuously make unforgivable mistakes in my life" - I leave it as such. She is truly the one and only person in this world who selflessly loves me more than her own self.
2. Ruam: She defines her best friends as someone who stays. And she kept her words. She stays for me. She stayed in the past, has been staying ever since the moment she saw me cry, stays in my present and I hope will be staying by my side no matter where we are, no matter what I do, no matter what decision I make in the future.
I should stop talking much about Ruam - because it could not be more obvious how much she means to me, even to my family. Rum is my parents Adopted Thai daughter.
3. Ferina Many people wonder why the hell we are best friends -.-" Fer is one innocent and kind girl with pure, ridiculously lame and cute heart. Simple girl, straight forward, while I am on the opposite side of the map - complicated, mean, sharp. Well, we both don't care if people believe us or not. The most important thing is that it was my phone number she dialed firstly when she was at one of the lowest point of her life. It was her phone number I pressed when I hit rock bottom. We are simple, really. Fer and I, our friendship is a no-brainer thing. We hate it, we say it. We dream it, we say it. We aren't afraid to do silly stuff together, or dream huge together, because we know, the other person support us wholeheartedly in every decision we make (even the one which Fer will marry a Tarzan kind of guy and me will have a Bollywood wedding -.-")
If you notice, I am having 2 best friend long distance relationship -.-" and I am not even a fan of such thing. It takes two hands to claps, if you wanna see how long we 3 last (FerRuRa) if you are curious about how not even 2 but ...6 hands claps, go to www.travelogue341.blogspot.com ;) that's how we roll. Usually I will let nature take its course, you know, we move on we drift we make new best friends. But they are truly my "keeper". I know they worth this fight against distance and life. ^.^ And I bet, they think I worth the trouble also ;) - I am possitive
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Many of you know know me more than 4 years, will now question my best friend list - there have been "others", and I am very proud of them. We did not break up, me and Vivi or me and Huong or me and Dung. It's true we drift apart. Put in different situations and life, we no longer speak the same language, no longer read life from the same page. For Vivi, she will not understand CCA, she won't roll her eyes and scream HELL YEAH with me if I mention OH Assembly, like I won't understand craps about her Truman lingo. But it does not mean I treasure them less. I am glad they also move on and find other people who share with them all these bits and pieces of joy and sorrow.
I now look back and treasure them, for during that particular phase of my life, they were there, they made my life worthwhile. I am sure, we still look at each other eyes with pure memories of who we were to one another.- the way we were -
Apr 22, 2010 08:08:56 PM EDT
Q: From Katharine Agnesia: whats the different between best friend n close friend, linhie???
in my own definition: best friend is someone who you trust almost completely (whom you don't feel ashamed exposing your weakness, your vulnerable your sinful crime) - who knows you for who you are - with all your "terrible" imperfections yet still, love you.
I copy from my best friend - Ruam: someone who stays - stays by my side even when the world turns their back against me. My best friends are my soul mates in a certain phrase of my life. - almost like my other self. (the feeling must be mutual)
Close friends are people whom you feel very comfortable with - those whom you could share 40% the shadow behind your back. ^^ . They are those you can truly feel at ease and trustworthy - yet you, in your heart, you won't burden them with this overwhelming power over you - they don't hold the key in your heart.
Having said that, my definitions of friends and acquaintance are pretty much different from other people.
Class mates, school mates, group mates, colleagues are class mates, school mates group mates and colleagues. What makes you think by putting 30+ people in the same box, I mean same room, you can make them bond and become friends. They are people we share a space, a moment, a phrase in our lives with. Appreciate them , of course, but don't mistake them and burden them with too much responsibilities such as: the ability to understand you, the must to comfort you when u are sad, to pick you up when your kiss the ground.
in the end, by drawing all these lines clearly, you protect your heart. When u are betrayed by an acquaintance - don't cry, doesn't worth it. People put themselves before any others, including you. Just laugh it off, slap yourself, call it a lesson learned.
Apr 22, 2010 04:36:42 PM EDT
Q: Do you put your family or your friends first ?
Family then best friends - then close friends. Seriously to me, acquaintance does NOT count, not at all. Having said that, I must say, I am really, truly, extremely blessed to have such wonderful family and extended family. I am too lucky, I believe. it's my own opinion but I really think it's silly for us to exchange something permanent for something temporary.
daughter and my younger self-adopted BPL>
Apr 22, 2010 04:04:43 PM EDT
Q: do u like to spend time with your family?
No, I don't "like" - I love, cherish, treasure those moments: late night talk with mom, light conversations with dad over Dry gin and tonic, ice tea on the pavement with my cousins... family dinner.
I used to hate to wash the dishes and do house work to the core. However, I learned to enjoy it nowadays - doing things for my family. Having been away for 4 years, finally now I am back and learn to treasure these littlest things that made me who I am today.
I really cannot wait to settle down for good in Hanoi
Apr 22, 2010 03:52:02 PM EDT
Q: what does "a chance of sunshine" mean ???
^^ I guess, by now, most of my friends understand that I am really not a studious student - I am not hard-working (last minute hard-working doesn't count) I am not diligent. I also do not have high self-discipline. Having said that, maintaining my scholarship for 4 years in Singapore is truly an achievement (pure last-minute hard-work and a lot of help from teachers and best friends)
It was too tiring and stressful - I never knew where I had the strength to make it through. I always saw myself drowning in the late night darkness, when people go to bed - the moment I finally drag my exhausted self to the study table.
I had to quit my Italian class (I did go for Italian class during my J1, from 6-8pm in Novena, 3 times per week after school) I had to quit Yoga. I did not finish my travel dream list by the time I was 20- not even close -.-" since America cannot be counted as 9 countries.
There is no point counting the "minus", the lost dreams. I chose this path, thus it's only fair that I finished what I started.
But I ask myself now: "what if I DO have the choice, what if I CAN make a different, live a less stressful life, do what I really want to do" I take this as my chance of sunshine - the chance to "live" the life I want - since I have to face the plain fact that I am really not a top scorer material, I never want to top a cohort/ a class/
I really want to make myself happy, to soak myself in the sun <3
Apr 21, 2010 04:25:16 PM EDT
Q: Yes i agree :) i am not coffee drinker but i love the taste of Vietnamese authentic coffee :) I know u like the Starbucks coffee mug LOL.
I drink coffee not to keep myself alert (despite the fact that I am very famous for being an owl -.-") but more for leisure purpose. I love the smell and the taste (which is almost completely lost after Starbucks-ized)
Having said that I love Starbucks as a culture, a brand name, a life style. I mean, where would you get a Vietnamese strong coffee in the middle of Singapore. Drinking Starbucks is like capturing the shadow of your beautiful childhood... You never quite get it, still, you are happy with the mere compromise - adoring the smoke without inhaling the your addicted cigarette flavor.
Sometime I sit in Starbucks and pretend/fool myself/ self-delude that I am sitting next to the drain on the pavement of Hanoi Street.
I love the mug somewhat as a part of the culture. In Vietnam, you sit and drink watching every drop of coffee drip drop drip drop , have a long - nonsensical yet heartwarming chit chat. In Singapore, You have a take away, taste a sip on the run - run to school, run to work - run against time to finish the last assignment on time.
The mug is adorable... lol, I am in love with it - eps the person who bought it for me <3
Apr 21, 2010 04:10:37 PM EDT
Q: Hmm I don't understand why you turn down BC! It's such a great school! Is that anything to do with the fin aid thingy?
:) I understand that both BC and Brandeis, ranking 30s - eps, BC's Lynch School of Education is one great offer that many students dream about. It was about the financial aid, since both offer NO help for international students. However, I am in the process of further negotiation for financial support from both college, with promising result.
Life does have many twists, and mine happened to occur right now. I am waiting for the last college to confirm with me the result, however, I am no longer sure if America is my final destination for the next 4 years. Many people may laugh at me now, I fought hard, I forgo many other things to just smile and walk away now.
To be honest I am torn. I will go where I become the least financial burden to my parents. I will go where I would get the most out of my college life and be the happiest.
After 4 years in Singapore, with what I have done, and what I have achieved, don't you think I deserve a chance of sunshine?
Apr 21, 2010 03:54:17 PM EDT
Q: what's the MUST listen song of DBSK, to you?
for me: "love in the ice" - beautiful harmony, heartwarming message along with my personal reason. "Love in the ice" is really a MUST-listen song since it fully depicts the vocal talents of the 5 DBSK members. 5 men, 5 different voices yet they can surely create ONE harmony named DBSK.
But this is very subjective. I am a Ballad person, so I like Love in the ice, I cried over "Toki wo tomete", want my wedding song to be "Midoyo" and sob over "Taxi" - the list is long, trust me.
If you are a youthful energetic person, well, Mirotic? Crazy love? Breakout?
You will find a suitable DBSK songs in every state of your life, trust me, I can guarantee.
Apr 20, 2010 08:14:52 AM EDT
