That hug, was the last of its kind.
- Walk with me, will you?
She smiled and he complied. "I will do anything you tell me to..." Was that a month ago when he said that to her? She remembered vividly the moment he whispered those exact words. She remembered how he begged and begged her to walk out of her room so that he can hug her and make it all better. She was so hurt that she hid inside her only safe haven - unwilling to compromise. "I will do anything you tell me to... Please come out" How easy? Today she just asked for a walk, a talk. He complied.
But she stopped in the middle of the road. She looked up to the tree on the side and wondered: "Is this tree beautiful enough? I will always remember this moment. I will" He was utterly confused by her action. She asked for a hug, which he unknowingly was too willing to give:
- No, not like that. Hug me like you mean it.
She said quietly, looking deep into his beautiful blue eyes. He was taken back by the strange request. And when they embraced, she wrapped her arms around him, truly hugged him for the first time - not tiptoeing around it. She inhaled his scent - and she heard the first crack in her heart... "Hang in there, love. This, too, will soon be over"
When she finally had the courage to let go, she whispered to him:
- This hug, will be the last of its kind.
Before he realized it, the gap between then had already widened. The color of the sky had already turned grey in her eyes. She stood on the other side of the world, lifeless, with her hair messed by the wind. The storm was coming. He saw the decision. He begged but it's far too late.
- Please don't say it. Don't change anything now. Please stay...
His words fell onto the ground and shattered, piece by piece. He was wrong - he could never read her. He couldn't see this coming. He couldn't prevent it.
- Please
- Sometimes, the heart cannot afford to be... just friends. I am sorry
They stood there, awkwardly. And when he walked away, refusing to believe it was over - all over. She felt this sense of odd calmness rushing over her. "There you go, you said it! Now let go..." She took a deep breath and watched strangers passing by - they knew nothing about what just happened a moment ago. They knew nothing about her fallen sky, the broken dreams, the withered blossom. No more late bus ride. No more sleeping on his shoulders. No more Chaka and little adventures. And she knows, soon enough that excruciating pain is going to hit her hard, shatter her to pieces; soon enough she will break down.
"That hug was the last of its kind... I wish it was longer. I wish it lasted forever. I am sorry it hurts too much, I can't do this anymore. I am sorry I love you... I am sorry I loved you."
