the notebook

Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if there wasn't something missing.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?


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reminds me of "The way I love you" by Taylor Swift.
They were a mess, my beautiful mess. But their ridiculous love was something which never failed to make my day.

I miss their madness of fighting over silly things, I miss their chaos, their bickering, the you-are-a-pain-in-my-ass-but-i-love-you-to-bits relationship they shared. D for past tense, D for the messy after math of the-why-the-hell-did-they-break-up, the walking away when both still love one another. Now he is a piece of cloud floating around aimlessly, and she with her new lover, conforms to this trying-so-hard-to-please young woman. I miss observing their endless fight, knowing well, they will make it up to one another just by a gentle touch.

I miss and I love both of them, not now, but once upon a time back then, when they were stupid and when they were together. We all settle for things, which are "easier". I was abandoned in a sense for the person of the yester-year finally gave up on my obnoxious behavior. So what? I am not gonna change, though my own mother commented I should not be so difficult.

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Noah: I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.

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we don't have to be the same to be in love

opposite attracts - again I smile, thinking of this particular sentence from the past. Yes, opposite attracts, but what stay? adjustment, the attempt to be less of ME, to be more of "US" makes 2 people stay together

but then again... I must love someone for who he is, full package of talent and insanity, ambition and obsession... I miss home
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