DBSK - only Human

and here in your eyes, I'd like to stay

My monologue:
I am very busy - I still keep track with DBSK. I read too much, feel too much but rarely have the time to pen down my thoughts... However I know, If I do not let it out NOW, I might as well BURST. MAMA, and their  latest Stand by you performance- which many criticize them for being unprofessional - yeah WHATEVER

1. I am glad you came

I am really glad JCS came to MAMA, I am not sorry I do not give a damn about others' opinion.
Calling them traitor? Calling them popularity-thirst? Calling them not legitimate to represent DBSK?
I am speechless, BEYOND my tolerance. Can't they see the desperation in Chun's voice? He longed to sing on stage... Can't they see JJ is at the verge of breaking down? Can't they see? Or are they all blinded by the media? By SM and their tactics? If they can't see then I am telling you this JJ screw up the most handsome face of Asia - Chun broke down - BACKSTAGE, ladies and gentlemen, BACKSTAGE, if they freaking ask for your pity, or if they wanted some kind of sympathy or stir up Cassies' anger - They could have shed JUST a drop of tear, could have shamed SM or did something despicable, I am pretty sure, Cassies are damn willing to burn SM down.

BUT THEY STOOD STRONG till the very END as 3, for 5 members, for 1 DBSK, withOUT CODY, BODY GUARD, with un-sponsored suits, with weary and polite smiles and tired frames... How many of you cry for their conditions? How many of you actually care and feel their pain being separated from their identity? Being reduced to mere voices, not singers, muted singers - the agony of being allowed to stand on stage but NOT to talk to your members/brothers or answer questions?

That's DBSK for you.

Please don't hurt them anymore, Please don't doubt them!
No one tells them this yet, I can't directly come up to Chun and beg him to translate to Su - in case Su, with his MARVELOUS and amusing Su-glish misunderstand my good intention:

"JSC, I am glad you came. I am thankful, you came. I am grateful against all odds, against all threats, you came. I am sure, if there was one freaking reason why you risk your future to step on stage that particular day, it was for US, for CASSIES" - I am just very glad you came

Really if you can't make up your mind and abide your word: "Keep the faith", just move fandom. Faith is not denial, we are all well aware of the situation. We don't deny they are going through much, even anger within themselves toward one another perhaps, but faith... HOPE DIES LAST remember that. That if you chose to believe in their friendship for years, have some faith that even if they fight - as ALL of us have been there,done it, wanted to murder our best friends just so one day ended up crying in each others' arms saying one simple word: SORRY

2. Friendship

Some people started to falter from the very beginning of the lawsuit... some people start  falter now. Some people. NO, I won't deny, MANY people are doubting their friendship.

I don't - even if tomorrow, I see their pictures punching one another, swearing or calling each other's name - I don't doubt their friendship of more than 10 years, 6 out of which they inked themselves, engraved in their heart 4 letter words

TVXQ.

It's true we don't talk with our best friends in primary school anymore, it's true friendship does not stay forever - but it does not mean IT WAS NOT REAL.
At that very particular moment back then in time, they were close like brothers (I am not assuming that they are NOT now) In Paris and somewhere in Prague, in Grand Canyon and all over the places in Japan and Korea, back then they were each others' air to breath, inspiration to compose and motivation to push all that anti's threat and hatred to move on as DBSK.It was truly LOVE, and don't you dare doubt it!

3. Only human

For one last time, I just want to scream my heart out to let those soil-headed people know: even when they are named Gods rising from the East, even when they rewrite history and break all possible record: they are human, with flesh and blood i.e.
1. Your mindless/brain-dead words accusation and doubts/ gossips, whatsoever - I am sure you are damn good at creating chaos, dear SM and antis, DO hurt them emotionally
2. Your poison, in any form, whether it glue or a direct hit on the face, DO hurt them physically and mentally
3. Your constant stalk, camera straight up close to their faces 24/7 drives them INSANE
As much as we love them... we deprive them from the basic rights as human. We can fight with our friends, we can misunderstood our best friends, WHY CAN'T DBSK? Why can't Homin be upset with JCS because they miscommunicate and misunderstand? Why do you take just a moment of their anger to judge their years of hardship and brother hood?
Stand by you performance, Ok, I agree it was not their BEST one. Not being bias or fan-girl, fair enough, it was not their best. But what do you expect? Can you come up on stage, in THAT condition and pull it off better than they do? Common be honest! They are like the little mermaids, dancing their hearts out, beautifully on shattered glasses. So in THAT condition, you want them to smile CHEERFULLY??? You want them to PRETEND that they are fine? Give me a BREAK!, no not me, GIVE THEM A BREAK.
Even when they are DBSK, they are human... Why can't you let them be? They have been trying their VERY VERY best already.
Don't be ridiculous!

4. About JJ

JJ was one of my least favorite members back then, when I first start the whole fan-girling. I am pretty sure, to some of you who know me well, I am not a Yun-Jae lover shipper. I love U Know, simple as that. I rarely talked about JJ before, though those Cassies whom I love the most (namely: Nings and Iva) are both JJ's lovers. But here is something I want to say about JJ
At this particular moment, I would trade almost anything for JJ's genuine smile. I have read many fan's comments, fan's and anti's that JJ cried - what kind of weakness is that? JJ is like a girl, cry baby - real men do not cry...
-laugh, sarcastically LAUGH - Those tears he shed do not make him any LESS of a MAN, but on the very contrary, make him so much MORE like a HUMAN, bloody hell, he is not your freaking ice prince. I appreciate those tears so much because, they simply tell us one thing
---that there is something JJ holds dear to his heart, something JJ lives and fights for, something MEANS THE WORLD to JJ... That beautiful thing is DBSK.
For the first time, I am telling you this, I love and respect JJ - he has the dignity and courage to live true to his emotion and feeling. He is not a freaking coward who hides his heart, being scared of you people calling him a cry baby.
Just for THAT much, JJ is more of a man than any of those antis who call him names

5. Last few words

If one day, all this was to end...would you look back at the time you've spent loving them and supporting them as one you will forever cherish or would you look back and regret???

Fair enough, I thought I would give you my 2 cent, I am giving you my piece of mind worthy of at least $200. If it is still necessary to ask me this question then

NO

Not a moment, a second, a fraction of time will I ever regret loving them, adoring their music, trusting their brotherhood and friendship. Simply NO. fandom and fangirling - these are the things I did not acquaint myself with throughout my childhood and teenage life. Theses are the things I will never get myself into, if not for DBSK