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My-Linh.Phan

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Q: what is the most special thing about you that you would want ppl to know about?

I stand by my best friends no matter what. Even if she does something wrong/ stupid/silly/unacceptable in my definition of it, I will not leave her struggling in her own misery. It does not mean, I would not tell her straight up: "I think this isn't right". I would, so at least she can make up her mind in a more rationale manner. However, if she insists on her way, I will support her.Who knows, she may find her happiness.

You may ask me, why would I do that? ummm... Simple answer, I was once left alone crying my eyes out for months, I was once left alone to go against all odds by my very dear "best friends"... It takes me years to see who are my truest, most truth-worthy people. Now that I know who they are,  I love them with my whole heart. That's why, I would NEVER ever want them to experience such horror and loneliness I did.

Seriously, if your friends are wrong, so what? Will u be happy when u see them in despair, and laugh: "I told you before?" If MY best friends fall, I would love to be there and pick them up - just like what they did when I was kissing the ground.

... about friendship, that's something I want people to know. But this is really ONLY for best friends

:) - and I am sure they know very well who they are

Apr 17, 2010 03:36:02 AM EDT

Q: tell me one thing very few people know about u

I can really live without my phone, especially now that I am in Vietnam. I had to beg my dad to stop asking me to use it a few time, but he didn't buy it.So I turn on my phone and pray that no one contact me, eps. now when I lost my voice. If you want to find me, fb is a much better option, lol... Do you know this about me yet?

Apr 17, 2010 03:15:56 AM EDT

Q: Do you think you will forgive a cheater and give him another chance?

4 year ago I will say: "DEPEND" on the situations/ person. However people change, don't we? My answer now and ever on is final: "NO". You may think "it's his first time,common, give him a chance, he's sorry enough" but I tell you this: once a cheater always a cheater. A guy who doesn't have the balls to fight his temptation is surely a dude with no principles at all. It's in his blood, if you still want to forgive, go ahead. You are kissing a frog, hoping he will become a prince, but guess what? there is only one prince among countless frogs out there. So, you do the math...

Apr 15, 2010 03:46:32 PM EDT

Q: forgive or forget?

neither. When I do not think about something anymore, it does not mean I forgive or forget. I may let things slide, and move on. But as much as I treasure kindness, though in the form of subtle gesture, I remember the cause of my scars as well.

Apr 15, 2010 03:35:48 PM EDT

Q: Do you plan on expanding your family?

I don't quite understand your question explicitly, thus it's hard for me to answer it exactly the way you wish to know. So I will go along with my vague guesses, pardon me - if they don't satisfy you, please come back and ask me again more directly.

However, the answer is NO in all the situations I could think of.

For me, I don't plan on expanding my family - if you wonder when I am getting married. Right now I am 21. Right now I am ambitious and selfish - I am not ready to commit myself into a relationship not to mention marriage. Despite the fact that the fortune teller reminds me this is a VERY good year for 89 born to get married, and many of my friends have already sealed the deal. I am not one of them.Not till I am more mature and learn to be selfless. - less importantly, not till I meet the one

For my parents - if you wonder about "adoption". For them, all my cousins are their children, not just Angie. They also have Alex, Ruam, em Ngong, and I would not dare to forget "Fatty". . . My parents love children, young people, thus I am sure, they are ever willing to "expand" their love and guidance. However, this is FAMILY we are talking about, there is no way we can "plan" ahead.

We believe in fate. If someone is destined to join us in this FAMILY, he/she will sure come and we

will welcome him/her. However, there is no way we can plan it and there is no way we desire to do

so.

Apr 14, 2010 07:11:50 AM EDT

Q: if there is one boy say that he love u..but u just know him..how? would u accept him?

No, I wouldn't. It was too despicable a lie to tell someone you love him when you don't feel breathless not having you by your side (not to mention I just know him -.-" ). I would never commit such crime - robbing him the truth. Everyone deserves true love i.e. love and be loved in return, so does he - but more importantly, so DO I. In another words, I am really NOT that desperate to have a boyfriend, so much so I have to go such extend to cheat on my own heart.

Apr 12, 2010 10:35:58 AM EDT

Q: dinda said : sepertinya dia bukan sahabatku lagi, melainkan hanya sebatas teman biasa :(

translated by my dearest Nezz: "He's not my best friend anymore, he's just my friend" - sorry to hear so. It kinda sucks to see such great bond broken, but guess what, if he's truly your best friend, you 2 will find ur way back, if not - corny it is, it was meant to be in the past, we don't deny it BUT it's really not mean to be now anymore, or in the future. So, Cheer up, ok? :)

Apr 10, 2010 02:47:02 PM EDT

Q: i love my family..you?

I do, and I love them "more than the air I breath". I guess I know who you are, after all, I am very glad you realize it, feel that way. Love and care about them, ok? They may not love you the way you want them to, but I am very very sure, they love you with all that they have.

Apr 10, 2010 08:28:08 AM EDT

Q: how long are you willing to wait for DBSK?

as long as Cassiopeia is still shining gorgeously and faithfully in the sky, I will be rooting for their

victorious and heartwarming comeback

Apr 09, 2010 04:10:39 PM EDT

Q: Do you prefer mornings or nights?

nights - "in darkness the eyes begin to see" - I saw my true friends, and I saw the pretenders. I thank the nights.

Apr 09, 2010 12:26:17 PM EDT

Q: Have you decided which college you'd be going to this fall? And if the answer is yes, what college is that?

No, I have not. But I am turning down Boston College for sure - doesn't it feel good to be the one who can "reject" or "accept"? Once I decide, I will inform everyone who cares, sincerely cares

Apr 09, 2010 12:23:31 PM EDT

Q: what are you doing in Vietnam now?

I finally have the time to pick up skills I lack. For instance, I am re-learning Italian and piano and start fresh with another language. I also spend most of my time with my parents and extended family. I quit my job recently to concentrate on my study, but soon enough, I will head back to work again

Apr 09, 2010 12:22:15 PM EDT

The difference_02 "Just"

GLEE:

Emma Pillsbury stood up, turned around and walked off in her beautiful wedding gown

Will Schuester (held her hand, trying to stop her): Emma, I just left my wife
Emma (stopped midway, turned to look at Will deep in his eyes): Yes, Will, you just left your wife.

*****

I always find Lit amazing how it peals off layers and layers of truth and let me see the naked, barren, most honest emotion the writer/speaker tries to protect himself with this clumsy cover. I also find "it" amazing how one word - that full mouth of air breath into life such vast, sky-earth gap between two opposing intentions

Today, the story of just

His "just" demands her understanding, sympathy. His "just" emphasizes on his short-term, current open-raw wound  heartbreak. Look, he only had the strength to break away from an empty marriage. Look, why couldn't she see his effort? Someone his grunt marks a hint of triumphant - I did it, maybe, but maybe not... for you

but hers

But dear, her "just" said it all: "you just left your wife." he "just" while he should, should, should really have done it decades ago. She waited and waited and waited for him to realize his decaying marriage needs to be banished. Her "just" depicts the final drop of tears that trigger the outpour of her bottled up emotion - it wasn't short term, it wasn't a moment of despair... It was years, and years of exhaustion. Yes, now he did, yes now he finally realized it... but "you just left your wife." she said and she knows that was not enough... it was too late and not enough

*****

"We don't "JUST"" - mark my words, none of us really "just" do something

rightly wrong

You exhale your favorite line

full of pretentious confidence

"You are 

all 

wrong

...

ALL 

WRONG!"

Insecurely, you point your finger

(the beautiful finger I love)

then burst in your nervous laughter

(the trembling voice that shatters my nerve)

"I can't be wrong...

I can't, I just can't"

And I smile.

brush things aside

"I guess, you are right, I may be wrong

maybe

I am all wrong"

loving you I notice not,

left or right - I care for only your way

night or day - as long as, by my side, you stay.

But one thing I know for sure

I am only all wrong

for loving you this much

***

I don't mind being all wrong

so that you can be all right.

so that you can be alright. 

as long as you are

alright

AKTF

This is the note I wrote under the latest chapter of my fic: A chance of sunshine_chap7. Never mind the fic ^^, however the message below is something I really want to share with you guys. Always keep the faith

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Dearest reader(s),

Thank you for your support to this fic so far, though most of the time, I look at it and wonder if this is a mere fan-girl's obsession with DBSK eps. U-Know. Still I write on, not knowing how many of you out there who are actually following this fic - it's not the number that counts.

it's the faith

Today fan-dom was shattered. Some died a little too much inside, some could not face the truth - some cry - some ... I do not know, we face a whole lot of different emotions. This only proves one thing, DBSK is love, DBSK plays too much of an important role in our hearts.

Having said so, I have read such negative fb status today. "Not all gods create miracle. Farewell DBSK" and I was deeply hurt. IF THEY DO NOT CREATE MIRACLES, THEN WHO DOES? Look at us, look at our lives, look at those moments- thanks to them we survive. When my grandmother passed away, if not for Holding back the tears, Kiss shita mama goodbye, I don't think I could have made it through that flight back from Singapore to Vietnam. When I was l discouraged, there was Bolero, Rising sun, there was Tomorrow will come. For a simple suspension in Japan, how could fan turn away so fast? They were suspended as a group in Korea last year... it's just time, seriously, SM creeps their hands into Avex's part of the responsibility. Until the lawsuit is finalized, it's only necessary that their group activities paused - so the whole law suit things can be in full swing

Never mind my interpretation. Never mind if you think I am making excuse, creating false hope to hang on. Having said that, I believe some will leave fandom very soon. Many of my readers - my assumption that there are actually readers, will have a vague guess that this fic will end here, sooner or later.

But guess what? I am not a fan-girl. I stand behind their back and with many other true red blooded Cassie, form this system of support to DBSK - now and forever, as 1 DBSK and as 5 individual members. 

So as long as I still breath, as long as there is still internet on the land I stand, still electricity for me to plug my laptop - this I promise you, this fic will not die a premature death, the same fate goes to my secret plan for a full 5 DBSK boys novels. Changmin's Evergreen will come next after A chance of sunshine. I never want to say something before things are pretty much done. But for this moment, I will utter my plan out loud - so there is no way I can loose this fighting spirit, take back my words and turn my back against something/ someone I believe in so much.

I say enough, and I will talk no more. For while I am talking senseless, I know Yunho is working hard, JJ is getting drunk, Changmin is watch porn (jk) - I do think he is busy with the drama and school work, Yuchun is expecting his new sit com and of course Junsu is preparing for the Untitled single. None of them stop working.None of them stop trying to do their best for great public appearance - so we do not have to miss them so much. SO I don't want to loose out to them. I don't want to look at their success and achievement and AWWWWWW or WOOOOWWW about it. As much as DBSK makes Cass proud, it's only fair, we keep faith and support them - in turn make them proud for who we are - their extremely mature and dignified fandom.

So take care, everyone. If you are a student, ACE your exams. If you are a nurse, be KIND to your patients. If you are a dreamer, ACHIEVE your goals. Whoever you are, if you have ever called yourself their Cassie, make them proud. For bloody hell, they freaking deserve our trust.


Your Writer,
Linhieee

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gọi tên anh mãi... suốt cơn mê này

1April, 1988 - 1April, 2010

Toki wo Tomete

Please stop the time...

*****

If I could make the time stand still, could I? should I? would I?

Till this moment I still wonder why

You, insisting on our goodbye

Please stop the time 

If I had magic in my hand

Would I create a miracle? Give us another chance?

Would it stop you from leaving?

Would it return us to the very beginning

Would a while longer make any sense?

Even eternity? when you decided to let go of my hands?

It's OK. I won't try to stop the time

So there -  I won't ask you to stay.

If it's your decision to walk away

Please, let the time flow

for I, I will grow

No matter how devastated I would feel

One day, time will make my heart heal

No matter how far I have to go

One day, sky above the mountain I conquer will no longer snow 

There, on top, I will scream out your name

the one I loved, my source of pain

You chose to leave, me - to grow up
For we both know, enough is enough

It's over

No embrace lasts forever

Don't stop the time